To Anna and Noah,
I will always
think of you as my babies, but I will try not to treat you as such. When your
hearts break, so will mine, because once, yours beat so faintly inside of me.
When you cry, I will cry. When you
laugh, I will laugh. I will support your every endeavor, even if I am not sure
of your choices. When you are happy, I will be happy. I will try not to worry
in advance about the next time you will be sad!
Because I am your
mother, and I will always think about you more than you think I should. I will
agonize over your challenges, but trust you to work them out. I will offer my
opinions, when they are not wanted or needed, as that will always be in my
life’s job description. I appreciate you for not letting me know you are mad at
me, even though I know you sometimes are. I accept that you might not take my
advice, and I love you for listening. I know that I annoy you sometimes, but
that you will always love me, and my quirky ways.
God gave you to
me, but you are not ‘mine’ to keep. I have had to let you go, to let you grow,
to watch you fail and to watch you succeed. I have had to do a lot of that
watching, from what I think is far too great a distance. I will always be proud
of you, but I will not take credit for myself.
I will miss when
we aren’t together and love you no matter what. Forgive me for those times when I am too pushy
or opinionated, or when I want more of your time than you are able to give. Thank
you for always making me feel special for just being your mom. You are such
wonderful grown ups and I am so lucky to have you both in my life.
With all my love,
Mom
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